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I'm Not Trying To Make You Out To Be The Bad Guy But If It Seems Like I Am You Probably Are

from An Appeal To Heaven by Isabella James

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I can't sleep anymore,
I genuinely can't but I try,
I'm completely ruined,
I'm completely worthless.

I'm kept up by trauma,
Recolection of past events,
I'm kept up by you,
How you wept for me.

I'll never live a normal life,
I'll never be a normal girl,
You told me that,
You looked me in the eyes and told me that because you loved me.

You said you couldn't bare to see me be sad,
Yet you ignored me when I told you I'd tried to kill myself,
You ignored the hours I cried,
You're selfish I fucking hate you.

Her brains drifting somewhere else,
The pills they weren't adequate,
Falling to the fucking floor,
Her suicide was no approbate.

I'll never live a normal life,
I'll never be a normal girl,
You told me that,
You looked me in the eyes and told me that because you loved me.

She's bleeding out from her arms and her throat,
Sinking to the shower bottom outside a promissory note,
Promising the misery she wrote,
Her arrogance making her fucking choke.

It's been three hours now,
Noones come to see her,
Waters up to her knees,
She's drowning.

I'll never live a normal life,
I'll never be a normal girl,
You told me that,
You looked me in the eyes and told me that because you loved me.

All hell breaks loose around her,
Hallucinations surround her,
Is it the blood loss is it the sleeping pills,
She's a maniacal satanic Litterateur.

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from An Appeal To Heaven, released August 17, 2020

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